The Door Closer September 15, 2009

Since then, she’s come back then gone again. She is poison, I’ve decided.

About-face. August 11, 2009

Well, I wish that lasted…..ba-bow. Gutted.

Only one day… August 4, 2009

I am disappointed in myself for my glutton-gaze.
She is a beautiful child who deals with life as children do:
all needs and wants.
I don’t know where her honesty sits…
behind all the toys and triumphs.
I see her strip tease and her stunning ego and it’s true,
I am agape,
like an ape,
drooling too.
But I should know better.
I know [...]

03/08/09 August 4, 2009

You have danced in,
like a fanciful storm
unconcerned with your reception
so long as you’re received.
I was waiting there
with an open mouth
and, days later,
I’m still sucking at the crumbs.
You get away with everything
because you’re beautiful.
I wonder
how long it will be
before you stop
getting away with it,
with me.

Alfred Lord Tennyson May 12, 2009

Come Not When I am Dead
To drop thy foolish tears upon my grave,
To trample round my fallen head,
And vex the unhappy dust thou wouldst not save.
There let the wind sweep and the plover cry;
But thou, go by.
Child, if it were thine error or thy crime
I care no longer, being all unblest:
Wed whom thou wilt, but [...]

Ghosts April 13, 2009

There you are. You’ve been on and off all day. I have wanted to message you but I am too stubborn. In October last year, I was thinking I was going to jump back into you and do another move. I was up for it but you didn’t text back.
We never talked about what happened. [...]

Cat Party March 20, 2009

I miss having time to read novels. These days are endlessly full of ‘tired’. I hate the buzzing in the morning; that fucking alarm clock is like a groaning wound. I appease it but it flares up again. As for work, it is very much seasonal. Nice hot sun fun and drizzly, dreary winter slog [...]